As the years gone by, I still am uncomfortable with having a blog. Occasionally I’ll want to post something, usually because I want to share something great, or to appease the 3 women that actually visit this site asking why I don’t post much (hi ex-lover, hi stalker, hi mom.)
The truth of the matter is that I just don’t lead a very interesting life. My interests tend to be niche; like sci-fi television show, computer gaming, web design, hardware, and other geek stuff. Hell, even my taste in music isn’t popular. Anytime I talk about any of these subjects to friends and family at parties or family events, their eyes gloss over and they go into an automatic polite nod mode. Some of them even manage a fake smile.
I think one of the bigger reasons why I have a blog is that occasionally I get the itch to do some web design, and it acts as my playground to be creative every once in a while. That’s the only reason I can come up with at this time.
Perhaps at one time I was deluded into thinking that I had a voice, and people out there are interested in what I have to say, but everyone and his mother has a blog these days. Except my mother, she can barely afford a phone. Now my voice is drowned out by more popular people with far more interesting lives. People that would find my life interesting are the kind that think watching paint dry should be a sport.
Perhaps the other reason is that I’m just not a talker. I’m a listener, I like seeing and hearing what other people have to say. What am I trying to say? What I’m trying to say is, why do I even blog?
Well, for some reason your site made it to my rss feed.
Very few sites are on my rss feed so maybe, in a way, it must mean something.
But then again, aren’t we all just a bunch of grey mice?
You can ask yourself a whole bunch more questions but if you like doing it (sometimes) then by all means, continue.
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Matt, you’ve made a difference in many of our lives over the years and I just want you to know that. To me there’s still a part of you in 3dgpu and I see it every time I come there. Keep blogging man. We may not respond but we do read and we do like seeing how you’re doing. For me, I’ve never met you but you’ve been part of my life for many years.
Sometimes I have exactly the same questions spinning round in me.
I dunno if it is just weird grandparent style logic…. “Maybe someone will find this useful one day” or just bonkers mountaineer logic “I did it because it was there!”
My fav theory at the moment is this…. “I needed somewhere to keep it safe for my own future reference!”, probably spurred on by the idea that I can find my blog even when I can’t find a notebook.
Maybe I just write it for the bots…. Raise the conscience level of the machines by linking a few more bits of information together, so when the machines take over the world they look at me favorably.
It may be easier to decide who the blog isn’t for :)) I concede that my blog mustn’t be awfully good reading for people who are not interested in the exact things I do, so I don’t write it for these people, simple as. Saves dumbing it down :D
Incidently, I found your blog when looking for mashups. That collection is awesome, good job ;)
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JulesD
I happen to have that stance at this current moment. “I can go back and read what I said in the past. It’d be neat!” Except I did that recently and I felt like I was stupider in the past, and embarrassed that I wrote such stuff. So now I need to come up with a new excuse. Think I’ll adopt your grandparent logic one and give it a whirl. I’ll let you know how it pans out in 40 years.